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Tuesday, December 13, 2005

What a blessing

What a blessing it is to live in this world of ours. WOW! Look around you sometimes. The beautiful colors we have, wonderful sunsets (usually in bed when sunrise happens), plants, animals, wonderful friends, I mean how lucky we are to live here (wherever it is you live). Most of all we have been blessed with a wonderful father in heaven who truely loves each one us and wants to help us in anyway that we can. I'm sorry if I seem like I'm preachin' to all of you who read this but this is what gets me my title of "churchie". Guess there is no secret in that though. I have gone through rough times in my life and I am still going through more of them but to make it all better with me atleast I just send a little prayer-mail to my heavenly father. You know the picture of Christ at the door where there is no handle but he's knocking? Well that's life for ya. Christ wants to help us but he can't just come on over or give us a revelation, we need to ask for help. Your teacher won't help you with an answer if they don't know you're having a problem with it and even though God knows all us and what's going on we need to raise our hands and ask for help. Thanks for the help that I've recieved from each of you and all of the love. You've been a lighthouse for all of my stormy seas. What a blessing you all are.

Monday, December 12, 2005

she's going and there's nothing I can do about it

I'm losing my best friend up here (besides Ashley). When Brooke and I became best friends in the apartment she decided that due to circumstances she could not control she had to leave and so to valley view she went. I still see her sometimes and we have a lot of fun when we're around each other, but it's not like when she was my roomie roommate. We'd share our hopes, our fears, what we wanted to do with our life, embarresing moments (natural heater) and how much alike we were. She and I being the only ones from Utah in the Apt. we could relate on so many things. She was the only one who I NEVER had arguments with and never even had anything to argue with about. She was better than a sister because sisters always fight, but not us. I was able to go to her with all of my problems because no matter what it was she could relate, but now she is leaving USU altogether and moving out of Utah. We both promised to keep in contact, but contact through email never lasts. She will always be the best friend that I made up here in logan and I'll miss her a lot. Here's to you sis.

ROOMMATE TROUBLE

Why are girls so full of drama. I thought that I'd left the drama department but no, these guys are about to make it to broadway. No one can clean just there own stuff, we have to have a chore wheel which no one uses, major touble if you leave a pizza box on top of the fridge, offering a few to someone is really saying "here you can have the rest of it, I'm done" and when you put your name on your food and you leave it, it no longer is your food. If you've seen Mean Girls then you know how much back talk goes on. I am so sick of walking into a room where the girls were just talking about me. Freshmen year is where each girl is trying to find out who they are and it hurts seeing those who are also LDS completely go rebel.
Another thing that drives me up the wall is when I say seat or bum instead of butt like the way I was brought up and they will call me "churchie", or mo-mo". It's not suppose to be meant as a compliment. I didn't care the first hundred times they said it, but it has gotten to be really annoying. Have you ever had someone call you goodie-goodie many times? Imagine that all of the time.

isn't that the way it goes

My biggest fault is that I am a procrastinator. It bugs me and yet I do nothing to change it. I am in the constant mind set of "I'll do it tomorrow", but in my own stupid opinion tomorrow never comes and I'm waisting my time. If you must know I registered really late for school, and I am barely able to pay for school because I didn't want to work hard enough for the money. I love to socialize, but in the end had I worked during that pointless time of waisting the time that I shouldn't have, I'm 80 bucks poorer. "don't it always seem that you don't know what you got til' it's gone".

Sunday, August 14, 2005

"excerpt from sunday talk"

Last night I had to drive on the freeway, alone, at night, and for all those who know me well know I do not like to drive on the freeway at all let alone at night. I kept dreading the belt route that I would have to take to get home because you go around that turn extremely fast. I accidentally took the exit right before that and had no idea where I was. Before me was this humongous intersection and I didn't know how to go through it. I thought to myself I'll just follow what everyone else does and maybe that will get me home. Wrong idea!!! I ended up in West Jordan. I knew which way I was supposed to be heading so I made a right turn and stayed on that road for a while trying to think of what to do next. I just kept praying hoping I'd figure out where I was, and suddenly out of no where I knew exactly where I was.

Isn't that how life is sometimes? We make a wrong turn and suddenly we're lost. Then when you think you can do it alone you decide you start to follow everyone else and that doesn't do any good. then you make a RIGHT decision, pray for guidence, and suddenly you know where and who you are. Life's funny sometimes and you have to make the best of it that you can.

Sunday, August 07, 2005

I'm comin' out

Well I guess one thing I have to include in my blog is a little about myself:
1-I turn into mr. Hyde after 11:00 p.m.
2-I somtimes don't know when to quit
3-I always tried being something I'm not
4-I have the best sister in the world
5-I can't stand another blonde remark
6-I love all of my friends
7-I am so proud to be LDS
8-I AM SCARED TO DEATH to go to school where I know almost no one.
9-I'm a person who is content with anything, it's one of my good faults.
10-I have no idea what the future holds.

Who could complain

Life has been great to me. I can't complain because once you do you can always find someone else who has had it worse. I could be bitter about my job, but when working with such wonderful people, who could complain. I've had awe inspiring friends making me want to be better. Take Ashlyn, she could keep you laughing for hours, she inspires me to see the good in the world. There's Holli-bear, now if I could be like her, I'd have all the guys after me. She is so mature for her age she won't be single long. Shakes and I've been through a lot. we've had our ups and downs but can always call each other great friends. Fezzik as I think she's called? She is soooo smart, she can figure things out like that. I always can depend on her. What a wonderful person to spend the next year of USU with. Mary-Jane I think it is. She is a very interesting person. No matter what she'll never cease to suprise me. I've had many-a-fun conversation with her. Nancy Pong and I are quite a lot alike in many ways. No doubt she's the brains, but we also laugh for hours on end. Now I'm not saying each and everyone of my friends don't all share the same qualities, that's just what I see when I'm with them. They're all such wonderful loving beautiful girls, who could complain when I've got the leaders of our generation talking girl talk with me. You guys make life worth it and I thank you.