HOLY COWNESS!!!!

So, today being the 14th of August is no ordinary day my friends, oh no. It is a marker for something, as is every 14th but this one is the most exciting of them all. This day ladies and....if any gentlemen ever read this, is the marking of 1 month left before my Elder buddy comes home from his 2 year missin in Hawaii. Okay, so maybe this date isn't as exciting to you as it is to me, but I've been waiting for this day a long time. Well, technically I'm waiting for the next 14th but this 14th is the last one I have to wait for until I can be 1 month closer to him coming home. I mean, I've counted the last 24 14ths's of the months and now I'm so excited to be excited for the here and now. WAHOO, for counting, cuz in the end...hopefully it pays off.

realization

I've been the night manager of a restraunt for about a month now and I gotta tell you that it has been the most stressful thing that I have ever done in my life. I didn't choose to be the night manager, I was asked to be it. I would never take it back because I have definately grown a lot through out this but I am just having a hard time with this new responsibilty. It's hard to feel that you aren't good enough, that you don't measure up to those around you or who came before, and it's really hard to swallow when you are told this everyday. I feel like I can't ever do it. I hate that I don't have the best sense of humor, I hate that I feel like I have to compete with others, I hate hate hate having these feelings. I'm constantly worrying if I did a good job the night before or if my boss is going to ream me again for not doing anything right. If it's not for getting out too late, it's that I didn't send people home when we weren't busy and I know that my boss and his pet elizabeth are always laughing at me when I make a mistake. Then again, I hate it when people tell me, "you know, maybe this kind of management isn't for you". I want to do this, I have to, to prove it to myself and to others. I want to do a good job, I want to accomplish this. I will come out conquerer.

The Future

It's coming close to my birthday and I can't tell you what an eye opener it has been for me. I know that turning 20 doesn't necessarily mean that from now on you have to be grown up, I'm still immature, but it's still a little scary. I was laying in bed one night trying to fall asleep but my mind kept thinking of things that would or could happen in my life. I started thinking, some day I could actually get married, have children and take care of a family, and just everything that comes with growing up. It maked me happy for the spot I'm in right now, but then I started to get excited for those times, Life has a funny way of being good for us but then changing to keep us humble.

Summer drudgeries

Many blogs have talked about going back to work lately, and I'm going through the same thing. Isn't it sad that we can't just enjoy the summer but that we have to go straight into working hard again. It seems like that is how most of life is, you work hard and finally when you accomplish something you have to start something even harder. It's almost as if it's like that movie Finding Neverland where Mrs. Snow says at the end "it's all due to the ticking clock, time is chasing after all of us." I am glad that I have something to do with my time instead of staying around the house doing nothing but why does life have to go so fast.

In need of a hand

A few weeks ago I had everything going for me. I had just finished school for the 2nd year, I thought that my grades would be great, I had a boyfriend, and many goodfriends, and a job. Well, I still have a job and many I hope to call goodfriends but everything else has just started to fall apart. I thought I knew who I was and I once liked that person but now I find I confuse myself. It's not that I don't have a boyfriend but like I've said, it's just starting to fall apart. The one thing that I can hold onto lately is the gospel and hope that everything works out. In saying all of this I'm not asking for sympathy I just need a hand.

Wide awake at 5

I sit on my couch trying to finish my assignment that is due at 7:30 in the morning,
sleep tries to overcome me at 2 in the morning.
I listen to beautiful music placed for my listening by mater,
my down comforter is calling my name at 3 in the morning.
I text mater to see if he's still working on his assignment due in the morning
because at 4 in the morning I need something to keep me awake.
I look at the clock saying that it's 5 in the morning,
oddly I'm wide awake.
I find myself not wanting to go to bed
because who can wake up at 7 in the morning when they went to sleep at 5.
I don't want to miss the sunrise
so I stay up the whole morning to see it.
I will probably regret this later
because I'm wide awake at 5!

Ode to Quizno's

Oh Quiznos how I love thee most,
Can't get enough of your sweet toast.
Working there is never boring,
When everyone is quite annoying (except Q2 cuties).
The lovely DING I hear for drive thru,
Is only bad when big trucks pull through.
I must mention doing dishes,
when my hands just feel like fishes (add in by Fezzik).
And when customers complain,
Makes me want to point and aim!!
But it's all worth it in the end,
Cuz a big check the Quiz will send!
I'll be loyal all of my days
maybe some day I'll get a raise!

The rump sticker

Just so everyone is aware this is an assignment that I had to do for my English 2010 class, I'd love some feedback if it's not too much trouble.

Alright, we can all agree that bumper stickers send a message about the person driving, but what is even more classic about them is no matter what is being said on the bumper it's hilarious to watch people stare at them. You are stopped at a red light, your eyes start to wander and all of the sudden you look in your rear view mirror to see someone squinting to read what your bumper sticker says. What's even better is when you are driving away while they are still trying to read it and they start to tailgate you so that they can finish it.

Why does this have anything to do with Kairos you may ask; plenty. Bumper stickers are all about timing. You wouldn't say something about the Y2K bug because nobody cares about that anymore. All of that junk between Bush and Kerry is over so who wants to take precious tailgating time to read about them. But then again there are those ones that will always be timeless such as "My other car is a Batmobile", "I'm not spoiled, I just get what I want", and "honk if you love Jesus" (which of course a honk in response would prove this to be true).

One of these bumper stickers will continue to be placed and no one will care about it except for those who put it there, and that is... "My child is an honor student". Of course, the child will think that this is completely out of date when he graduated some time ago and is flipping burgers at the local McDonalds. How honorable! The all terrain cars with the bumper stickers that say, "If you can read this, turn my jeep over" (as the bumper sticker is upside down) is a personal favorite of mine. Who is going to be reading a bumper sticker when the car is turned over?

By far the Bumper Sticker that is my favorite says “IYQSU” which interpreted is “I like USU” (say every letter individually). Kairosly speaking you wouldn’t care or understand this bumper sticker unless you were a fan of or attended USU. By sticking a message on the “rear” of a car a connection is being made between the driver and everyone else. As in the exercise, the bumper with FLYNHI could be taken as the person is just always happy feeling on top of the world or they are a druggy and is literally flying high (in which case, police should read bumper stickers more often).

But in all actuality placing any kind of bumper sticker on your car automatically (no pun intended) says something about the driver. A car caked with stickers could show either the person has traveled a lot, they like to be heard, or that they will most likely be keeping their clunker forever as no one will buy a bumper sticker infested van. All in all bumper stickers, no matter what they say, will always be in high supply and supplying people with a good laugh and endless legal tailgating.

Elementary Observation

Well, today I went to a 1st grade class room (for my El Ed class) and observed how the teacher taught her kids. They were completely adorable and I loved every minute of it. When I first arrived there each one wanted to know who I was and tell me who they were so I was able to learn names easily. There is a big cage in the classroom that once occupied a rat who has since passed on to that big cheese in the sky. It now houses stuffed dinosaurs because they were bad as they put it. I was able to read with the kids (whom the teachers refers to as friends) and I was amazed at how much they already know. They were reading along with me and new what most of the words meant. They left for a quick walk outside while I popped some popcorn for them. In only 2 and a half hours I was able to remember most of their names and oh gosh they are all so cute. They are also learning hours and half hours right now which most of them had down. I think that little kids are the cutest. Well, me being a Special Education major I picked out pretty fast which students were not holding their attention as much. One kid wasn't receiving ANY attention from one of the volunteering mothers as she read to them and you could tell that he was pulling for anything he could get. He even fainted at one point so that someone would notice him. The mom just left him there and kept going until another kid did the same and she quickly pointed this out. When it came time to go I just wanted to give them all a hug and say bye-bye real loud but they were all studying and that would have been inappropriate. I can't wait to go back on Wednesday. And to think I was nervous for a bunch of 6 year olds.